Did I find a boat for me? One I can learn on? One that is big enough but not quite ready? I may have. My youngest and I drove up to see her, it took about three and a half hours to get there. We got up early that morning and then drove and drove and drove. It was fun.
We got there and found the boat. It wasn’t a perfect boat but it felt perfect. When we got on board and looked around we felt comfortable, at home. There are things that need to be fixed, all surface things, things like upholstery and some minor woodwork. And it needs cleaning. Like I said, we felt very comfortable.
We then prepared to sail. We motored out to the river and then set sail. The feeling of the wind in my hair, the sounds of the waves rushing by, the freedom. It was easy to sail and felt right. Do I buy something because it feels right? Or do I make a sound financial decision? Or do I do both? Both. I’m not going to buy something that doesn’t feel right.
But, am I going to go forward with my dreams? Am I going to take the chance on a life that I love? Am I brave enough to go into unknown territory? Life is about the adventure anyways, isn’t it? What good would it be if I never truly set out to live? I’ve had my share of wasted years. I’ve done my time in the dungeon. I’m not going back there again.
What did I decide? I decided I’m going to go for it. I’m going to make my dreams come true. I’m going to live into the unknown because it can’t be worse than where I’ve been but it can be better. I have moved forward on the boat and I will update again soon. I’m excited and a little scared. Being just a little scared means that I’m doing something right. I’ve learned that following my fears means I’m following my dreams. I’m learning to trust myself.
thank you for reading,